Miss Marilyn

surv

Sat, 19 Jun 2004 23:07:16 GMT

I AM: a sexii gurl
I WANT: to have a fairytale wedding
I HAVE: a great boyfriend
I WISH: my wishes came true
I HATE: many many many people
I MISS: the days when skinned knees were all i had to worry about
I FEAR: the worst
I HEAR: the humming of my computer
I SEARCH:
I WONDER: if people think about stuff like i do
I REGRET: many things in my past
I LOVE: william joesph jedlica
I ACHE: b/c my heart has been broken so many times before
I ALWAYS: kiss him before we part
I AM NOT: a slut
I DANCE: whenever i feel the impulse too
I SING: whenever a song comes on that i know
I CRY: when i listen to certain songs
I WRITE: whenever i am upset about something
I WIN: all the time
I LOSE: never
I CONFUSE: many people when i talk
I NEED: more friends
I SHOULD: not lie

[YES OR NO]
You keep a diary: yes
You have a secret journal: yes
You set your watch a few minutes ahead: no just behind lol
You bite your fingernails: no
You believe in love: yes

[DO YOU]
Take a shower everyday: yes
Have a(any) crush(es): just my boyfriend
Think you know you've been in love: i think i am right now
Want to get married: i most certainly do, like crazy
Have any tattoos/where?: no but i soon will
Piercings/where?: ears and one nip, but not anymore
Get motion sickness: no i gto sea legs my daddies tells me
Think you're a health freak: hah no
Get along with your parents: eh.. so so

[WHEN YOU SEE THIS NAME YOU THINK OF?]
Ryan: davis
Rob: cancer
Drew: cassies
Heather: saranac
Will: younglife/mcDs
Paul: my daddie
Eve: fetish
John: cute guys from nates house
Laura: shortness
Alex: ugly
Ricky: rico suave.. haha

[FAVORITE]
NUMBER: 15
COLOR: any shade of pink
DAY: friday
MONTH: may
SONG: wrong way by sublime
FOOD: dont really know..
SEASON: summer

SPORT: b-ball

DRINK: rootbeer
VEGGIE:cuk
FRUIT: strawberry
FAST FOOD: wendys

[IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU]
CRIED? no......yes
HELPED SOMEONE? yah
BOUGHT SOMETHING? yes
GOTTEN SICK? no
GONE TO THE MOVIES? no
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? yes
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? yes

WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? no
TALKED TO AN EX? no
MISSED AN EX? no
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? yes
TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU CRUSH ON? does my boyfriend count?
MISSED SOMEONE? yes

HUGGED SOMEONE? yes
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? no.. i dont think
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? yah just a dirrty naked slutty chic.. lol

[WOULD YOU EVER]
1. Eat a bug? prolly already have
2. Bungee jump? yes
3. Hang glide? yes
4. Kill someone? no
5. Have sex with someone you don't love? yes
6. Kiss someone of the same sex? already have
7. Parachute from a plane? yes
8. Walk on hot coals? no
9. Go out with someone for their looks? yes
10. For their reputation?yes
11. Be a vegetarian? already have
12. Wear plaid with stripes? no
13. IM a stranger? sure why not
14. Sing karaoke?yes
15. Get drunk? yessss
16. Shoplift? yes
17. Run a red light? yes
18. Dye your hair blue? sure lol
19. Be on Survivor? no
20. Wear makeup in public? yes
21. NOT wear makeup in public?umm depends...

22. Make someone cry?yes
23. Kick a baby? no
24. Date someone more than ten years older than you?prolly lol
38. Stay up all through the night? yes

my song to you my love

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 21:27:38 GMT

Well, I saw you with you hands above your head,
spinning around, trying not to look down,
but you did, and you fell, hard on the ground.

Then you stumbled round for a good ten minuts,
And I sayd I`ve never seen anyone look so dumb before
And you laught and sayd ?I still know how to turn you on thoug?

And you are the only one who,
drags me, kickin and screamin trough fast dreams.
And you are the only one who,
Knows exactly what I need

And I probably forgot to tell you this like the time when I forgot to tell you
About the scar, remember how unconfertable that made you feel
See you`re not what I expected, but you`re the only one who knows how to
Handle me, and you`re such a great kisser, and I know that you agree.

And you are the only one who,
drags me, kickin and screamin trough fast dreams.
And you are the only one who,
Knows exactly what I need

I hope you can forgive me for that time when I put my hand between you`re legs and sayd it was small,
cause it`s really not at all.
I guess there`s just a part of me that likes to bring you down just to keep you around,
Cause the day you realize how amaizing you are, you`re gonna leave me!

And you are the only one who,
holds my hear back when I`m drunk and get sick
And you are the only one who
Knows exactly what I need

And you are the only one who,
drags me, kickin and screamin trough fast dreams.
And you are the only one who,
Knows exactly what I need

Exactly what I need

Well, I saw you with you hands above your head,
spinning around, trying not to look down,
but you did, and you fell, hard on the ground

I LOVE YOU BILLY JEDLICA SOOO MUCH!!!! YOUR THE BEST BOYFRIEND

OUT THERE AND THE BESTEST BEST FRIEND I'LL EVER HAVE!!! THANK

YOU FOR EVERYTHING!!! I LOVE YOU!!

tainted love

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 21:18:33 GMT

well billy still doesnt have a car so things between us are a lil rocky. we try to spend as much time tgether as possible but its hard when he doesnt have a car and i dont get my license for another 2 weeks. and our friends really dont wanna cart our asses around all the time. so when were toether we try and make the best of it. we chilled all day yesterday b/c he had ross's car while ross was at the beach. so i took him out to dinner and just hung out. we were talkin on the phone later that night and he was saying that when we were drivin he was lookin at me and just thinkin damn good stuff liek this just doesnt happen to me.. why? and that he really does love me. and today i drove over to his house and we hung out. ate lunch and we were layin down and he was liek ashley i love you way to much. and i know im an asshole and i fuck up alot and do stupid things but i love you so much and i never wanna lose you and i dont want you yo leave me. im sorry for all the stupid shit ive done, and i know you treat me so much better than i treat you. but i do love you. and thank you for everything you do for me. and then the guy from the navy called to see if he could stop by.. yes the navy.. he wants to take my darling away from me and send him of on a boat in the middle of the damn ocean so i can never see him again... im not havin it! my baby isnt goin to no damn navy or anything like that! fuck uncle sam.. hes not takin away the ppl that i love and care about! NOO WAYY!! and i told billy that too and he wa sliek im not going dont worry about it.. im not.. but its still sad.. i duno...

later.
ashley

letter to my mom

Mon, 31 May 2004 21:38:07 GMT

Dear Mom,
It is with great regret & sorrow that I'm telling you that I eloped w/ my new boyfriend. Found real passion & he is so nice, w/ all his piercings and tattoos and his big motorcycle. But it is not only that mom, I'm pregnant and Ahmed said that we will be very happy in his trailer in the woods. He wants 2 have many more children w/ me and that's one of my dreams. I've learned that marijuana doesn't hurt anyone and we'll be growing it 4 us and his friends, who are providing us with all the cocaine or ecstasy we might want. In the meantime, we'll pray for science to find the AIDS cure for Ahmed to get better, he deserves it. Don't worry Mom, I'm 15 years old now and I know how to take care of myself.

PS: Mom, this isnt true. I'm at the neighbor's house, but I just wanted 2 show you that there are worst things in life than the school's report card that's in my desk drawer..love you! :-P

i got the blues

Mon, 31 May 2004 03:44:49 GMT

well yesterday i turned sixteen.. yes sweet sixteen! sarah spent the night friday so we snuck out and hung out with logan aka matthew McConaughy.. lol and picked up befus and hsi gay friends and amil met up with us, but nothing was goin on that night so we dropped beef and his friends off and the three of us just drove around and shit got home about 3.. or so.. woke up the next morning to my mom coming in my room and wakin us up, she gave me flowers and 16 balloons... pink light pink and black... my colors and one that said happy 16th b-day then she went down stairs and came back up with chocolate covered strawberries. dropped sarah off at like 12 or 1.. billy came over with joe nick ryan and anthony, they all said happy b-day and then left billy stayed of course and gave me my presents, he gave me a package of eetee lauder perfume, intense pleasures, smells great!! earring that match the heart necklace with diamonds in the center of the earrings and the heart. and this fuckin awesome braclet with stars on it but they ar eliek a wave, its soo cool its my fave present out of everything i got! from my parents i got a skirt, four shirts, 7 pairs of shoes, the dvd chicago, necklace earrings and braclet that all match, this bitchin watch that is like a lock, its my 2nd fave thing, an ipod that comin in the mail, they had to order it and its hot pink how cool is that, gift certificate to ruby tuesdays so i can take billy out to dinner, and umm i think thats it but im prolly forgettin sumthin...then the fam and i and amber and billy all went to kanki for lunch, anthony came and picked billy and i up and we went to joes house, chilled there then went to my surprise party at taylor befus' house, which wasnt a surprise at all, about three of my friends were there and everyone else i didnt know or wasnt friends with, everyone was fucked up when i got here, plans got messed up so i had to be home at 11:30, i was there for about ten mins and kat and crystal all left me there with billy ryan nick and joe and a house full of ppl i didnt know, so i left and i was soo upset i just cried and cried, and nick, joe and ryan wanted to take me out and do somethin else b/c they wer eliek its ur b-day forget them they arent your friends if they do that to you on ur b-day what do u wanna do? do u wanna just go out with us? or what? but i just wanted to go home and billy came with me so they dropped us off, and i had to explain to my parents what happened and igot even more upset, then sarah and kat called me and i jus thung up on them, and billy and i just chilled and he told me how much he cared about me and blah blah blah u guys dont wanna hear how sweet he is... then my dad drove him home at 11 and i went home billy called we taled ofr a lil bit then got of the phone cuz he had graduation the next morning

this mornign i woke up and got ready for graduation, billy and his fam picked me up at 12:15 went to the civic center, watched the seniors graduate finally.. its sad b/c i m gunna miss them all!! went back to billys house after wards, chilled took a nap there, woke up went out to dinner to o charleys with his family, came back to b's hosue and chilled ryan came to pick up billy with nick and i my mom came and got me and i went home whiel they went out to a party for graduation.. my life sucks...

one day left

Wed, 26 May 2004 21:45:21 GMT

Well all i have to say is congratulations class of 2004! i honestly thought alot of you wouldnt have made it to your senior year. hah i know that sounds terrible but its amazing to have seen you guys just completely grow up this year. im so very very proud of all of you!! best wishes to whatever it is your doing after highschool!

well this year was ALOT of firsts for me, it was great. i think i have finally found myself in the mist of everything that has happened this year. maybe it takes a lightpole, or a reconsilation with an old friend, or maybe i just needed to fall in love, whatever it is i know who the true me is now. not that i can explain it to you but i just know. at the begining of sophomore year i was a confused little girl, now at the end ive evolved into young knowledgeble women. now im not saying that i know everything because i dont, but i have undergone some serious changes this year, mentally, emotionally, and physically.while i know i'll always be a little girl at heart and i'll always wish i could go back to the days were skinned knees and the cost of bubble gum was my biggest problem, in reality i know i can never go back there again. i can only grow from here and even though i know there will be times that i really dont want to go on any farther i know that someone will be right behind me pushing me towards the best i can be. whether it be a boyfriend, family, friends, husband, god who knows where i'll be in 7 or 8 years, just thought of it alone scares the hell out of me. but in essence i'm still in highschool and i still have a year and a half left to go. gettin out of highschool as soon as possible is my first priority at the moment. even though i know that 15 yers from now i'll look back and still wish i was in higschool. i'm not really worried about that because if what i have in highschool now is so great then i shall have it 15 years from now still. and if i dont then it couldnt have been THAT great right? i know that there are friends that i have now that i'll be friends with all the way up untill were old and grey, god i hope it doesnt get that bad! hah. but thats what i look forward to, growing old with the one i love, and having my best friend from highschool be my maid of honor at my wedding. so when people say you know youll look back years from now and wish you didnt get out of highschool early, i beg to differ because i dont want to live in the past, nothing lasts forever, only in the past. in esence everything eventually comes to an end whether we like it or not. and while we all wish that certain things wont end, we are all prepare for the worst even if we dont know it. i dont look forward to living in the present physically but mentally and emotionally living in the past. i dont find that to help/add anything to your current life. its more like living in regret and wishing you'd have done something differently, so if thats your cup of tea that god bless but its not mine. it's my life and im gonna live it how i want to, so please dont tell me otherwise.

umm..yah

Mon, 24 May 2004 21:11:46 GMT

well sunday night i went out with billy and ross and we saw TROY..a three hour movie which was cool but i just sat in the theater for and hour and a half so my butt was really numb! haha! anyways both movies were really good! i havent been to the movies in a bout a year! my god! today was monday, the last monday of school! i cant wait til school is out! i left school at about 8:30 b/c of this bs rash i have! urgh! i had the car all day which was cool. went to the bank , got breakfast at mcdonalds then to billys house then to the doctors then to billys then to lunch and mcdonalds then to sams school then to pick up meds the the mcdonalds(for sam not me) now im home and it sucks! and its hot! AHHH!!!

^{_{my birthday is in 5 days!!!!! hope you guys get me something great!!! hahaha j/k}}

the weekend so far..

Sun, 23 May 2004 16:51:12 GMT

well billy and i were having some problems friday night, as a few of you know...well we fixed it saturday which was cool b/c i love him and i dont wanna lose him and we decided to stay together and just start all over, brand new, and stop the drama that has been happening recently...hopefully this works b/c god hes so great. . . so we made up anyways for the night that b and i werent together i went to th elovely miss sarah powers' house and as i was pullin up rob and taylor where walkin to the front door, what a co-wink-e-dink! anyways we chilled at sarahs house til 10:30 and then we left and drove around in hillary..lol.. and stopped by some peoples house, it wa scool since i dont really hang out with sarah as much as id like b/c i wuv her verwy much! hah! anywyas saturday i went to MaNnY my lovely lovely wonderful hairdresser that just completely ricks my face off. and he did my hair which looks wonderful if i do say so myself. he just cracks me up. ..and i was suposed to go to HG pool so swim with cassie but plans get messed up all the time and i had to do some errands with my mom which kinda sucked b/c i was upset about billy (we were still broken up) but we went to kohls and i got two shirts and she bought me two bathing suits for my "birthday" (thats what she thinks) but she ended up getting them both for free b/c the lady was stupid and liek didnt charge her..which was cool1 yup yup! well once i finally found my cell phone (left it at mannys) b called my and wanted to me to come over, so i went over and wel chilled, fought kissed, fought, and so on, and we finally decided on the decision stated above! soeverything was fine and dandy! and today im goin to the shrek 2 with the fam.. and hopefully hangin out with billy! my "new" boyfriend! hah

love you tons
ashley

random survey..hmm

Thu, 20 May 2004 00:46:13 GMT

1)what's your name?
ASHLEY

2) Have you ever had a song written about you? no
3) What song makes you cry? the reason by hoobastank
4) What song makes you happy? PERFECT by sarah evans
5) What do you like to listen to before bed? burn by usher

a p p e a r a n c e

+HEIGHT: 5'5"
+HAIR COLOR: brown, blonde. somethin like that..
+SKIN COLOR: olive skin tone.. yes i tan easily! WOOO
+EYE COLOR: brown...boring but i get compliments on them all the time.. hmm..
+PIERCINGS: ears..and ummm... lol LUNCH GIRLS U KNOW WHAT I MEAN!
+TATTOOS: no, but there will be a day
+WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: jeans...blue ..right?
+WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: the song from chicago the musical.. it goes if you'd a been there if you'd a seen it you would have done the same.
+WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: soda pop
+WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: gloomy n rainy
+HOW ARE YOU: tired

d o y o u g e t...

+MOTION SICKNESS?: no
+HAVE A BAD HABIT?: playing with my hair all the time!
+GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: sometimes.. i butt heads with my mom alot
+LIKE TO DRIVE?: yes but not when im tired
f a v o r i t e s

+TV SHOW: the o.c.
+CONDITIONER: smooth down by redken
+BOOK: thinner by stephen king
+MAGAZINE: allure
+NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: anything with out alochie..
+ALCOHOLIC DRINK: lovin the smirnoff
+THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: partie hang with boyfriend
+BAND OR GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER: eminem, kenny chesney, brad paisley, it goes on and on!

h a v e y o u

+BROKEN THE LAW: umm yes...
+SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: all the time
+EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: of course who hasnt?
+MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: of course
+EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: haha no but ive always wanted too!!
+USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: yes but only with permission
+FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: haha yes one time i fell asleep in the shower i and fell haha!
+BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: nope.. but everyone says i shoudl be in one b/c im so dramatic
+LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: hell yes on both mind you!
+HAD A GIRLFRIEND: no..lol
+HAD A BOYFRIEND: of course.
+SEXUALITY: i like swingin from the vines lol kat! member that!!
+HAD CHILDREN: no
+CURRENT CRUSH: my boyfriend of 8 months. i love him and i think we all know who he is!
+BEEN IN LOVE?: yes, currently its wonderfull!
+HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: havent we all?
+BEEN HURT?: in relationship, every single one!
+ANY REGRETS?: lots..unfortunetly
+GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: umm yah...
+HAD A JOB: babysitting count?

B L A B L A
+YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: lots of mix cds with all my fave songs on them
+IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: TICKLE ME PINK
+WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: my boyfriend and my best friends!
+WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: billy
+WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: they know who they all are,, i shouldnt have to list
+WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: everything, no limits

w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t

+TIME YOU CRIED? umm last night
+YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: wow, like 5 years ago
+YOU GOT E-MAIL: i dont get emails anymore
+THING YOU PURCHASED: girl boxers from victorias secret pink line that says PINK THINGS by victorias secret alllll over them!
+TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: umm fresh prince of bel air
+MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: something's got to give with billy..wow that was a loong time ago!

fill it out and sned it to me in a comment! love you
ash

horror

Mon, 10 May 2004 23:06:24 GMT

wow i really havent updated this thang in a lo0o0o0o0ong time! whoa! this past week wasnt good, billy and i werehaving some major problems that yes my dearest friend katty kat kat knows all about and shes pertay much the only one...no...she IS the only one that knows... yes thats better. well liek i was saying the past week really sucked b/c i hate fighting with the ppl i love and we all know that i love billy with all my heart and soul. SO i was real upset but my friends helped me through it, even though they didnt know what was goin on, b/c like i said before KAT is the only one that knows other than billy and i. we fixed things like thursday night. friday billy got his wisdom teeth pulled so we didnt go to any parties, but i did go swimming with the lovely jennifer kudla and her silly boyfriend saturday we(b and i) spent the day in wakefield at ross's hotel that he rented out for the night, went swimming, chilled there and then left cuz it was whack as hell, he was havin a HOE tel partie, emphasis on the HOE b/c all these girls came over that were like 17 supossedly but really looked about 12... and they were all thick as hell in bikinis except kate, she was so adorable. but there rest were busted busted busted! yah know how fat people shouldnt wear spandex, well thick people shouldnt wear bikinis! lol..anyways! we were gunna go back later but its pointless to drive all that way and have to come back and thee hours anyways! so we stayed home and slept sunday was mama's day and i went out to lunch with the fam + amber of course. then billy came over and picked me up and we just chilled b/c we had a rough week and weekend, but things are gettin back to normal, which is good. b/c we really do love each other,

today school was okay im so ready for it to be over, urgh! went swimming at garrisons after school today which is always fun! hes sucha fun ol' man! lol! and billy is about to come over so i cant wait! love you guys! MWAHZ!

lots o lovin for ashley tonight !

my 16th b-day in may 29th! it's a saturday and were blowin it up reallll big! can we say hotel parrrrrrrrrttttayyyy!?!??! HELL YAH WE CAN!!!