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May 3, 2004

AnD tHiS iS hOw wE RoLLeD...

well i told yall about friday night with the cops and the whole nine yards...so saturday i hung out with kat b/c i looooove her soo much!! saturday night ross came over to billys house i went home the two came and picked me up at 12:30, we went to micah and chaz' friends kegger and drank and shit, didnt leave til like 3, went to billy's house and i was so completely trashed and passed out in the car and so did ross. we got to billy's house and ross passed out on the fouton...sp?? and me and billy chilled in his room...hah... passed out and woke up at 4:30 i fell of his bed really hard, he drove me home got there at about 5 and could hardly get in the house, woke up the next morning with jenny calling me at fuckin 9 am. an di was so hungover and shes all hyper and im like shut up!!!! AHHH!! billy and ross came and picked me up at like 2 b/c ross lost his cellular...ut oh! and was tryan buy a new one, went to mcdonalds and i cooked grilled cheese at billys house went home cuz billy had to work, and then went out with my mama.

today, was a bad day, nothing went my way...my mom tok me sam adam billy and amber out to dinner b/c daddies outta town, (hopefully rethinkin about movin to boston) billy signed the table he made me and wrote the sweetest lil note, god i lov ehim so much! i dont know what id do without him, he means so much to me! hes what keeps me going everyday, through all the bullshit and drama and even though we have our lil fights and arguments, hes ALWAYS there for me and i couldnt ask for more, hes just tooo sweet!
anthoer highlight was me and sarah made up! FINALLY b/c i love this girl, shes means alot to me!

OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: hey
pEaCHeS Me 17: hey
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: how are u
pEaCHeS Me 17: im umm... okay.. doing a lil better
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: then what?
pEaCHeS Me 17: i was depressed earlier today about ian.. bc i miss him.. but i talked to him a few minutes ago and so im a lot better
pEaCHeS Me 17: how are you?
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: thats good
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: eh..
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: upset
pEaCHeS Me 17: about what?
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: just everything, im mad at myself and im sick of all the drama thats goin on and i feel like billy and i arent like how we used to be and i really wanted my dad to take the job in boston but he didnt, and everytime my dad has gotten a job offer ive never wanted to movebut something was different this time, if he took the job id seriously be packed and ready to go right now
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: and i dont like that feeling at all
pEaCHeS Me 17: yeah thats how i am
pEaCHeS Me 17: i might be moving to chicago and im soooo ready to move
pEaCHeS Me 17: i hate it here and im ready to get out of this hell hole..
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: yah and like im swriously liek dad why the hell didnt u take the job!!!
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: same here
pEaCHeS Me 17: wow were going throught hte same thing ashley!!!
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: i jsut want a new life so bad
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: i jsut wanna take billy with me
pEaCHeS Me 17: but my dad ahsnt gotten the job yet hes going on a job interview
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: that pretty much the only good thing in my life righ tnow
pEaCHeS Me 17: well i have no one here to take besides olivia n kyle..
pEaCHeS Me 17: but id do ANYTHING to move to boca raton..... anything
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: yah i kow
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: n
pEaCHeS Me 17: ashley... im sorry.. i didnt mean those things i said the other day i was just so pissed off at all this shit...
pEaCHeS Me 17: i said some things i shouldnt of and im sorry.
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: yah same here
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: im sorry i said some really mean things and i fell so bad for saying the, not that i didnt mean some of them, ill be honest i do think the whole thing about u datin like 10 guys is a lil slutty but its u not me, but im sorry for the things i said
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: and darlin u hafta know that i have to be completely 100% sorry and fell really bad in order for me to apologize, ask kat, i DONT apologize
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: but i dont wanna lose ur friendship
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: i love you, your my girl what else can i say?

pEaCHeS Me 17: :-)
pEaCHeS Me 17: i love you too..
pEaCHeS Me 17: god im glad i talked to you... i thought u were ugnna fuss me out so thats why i didnt feel like talkin to ya durin school
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: yah i figured
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: but u can ask kat, saturday when we chilled i felt soo bad about it
pEaCHeS Me 17: i g2g take a shower
pEaCHeS Me 17: aww
pEaCHeS Me 17: ill c ya tomorrow.. im glad were better bc ur a good friend
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: u 2
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: luv yah
OoCuTeNcRaZaYoO: byebye

Posted at 10:18 pm by MissMarilyn
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May 1, 2004

interesting night..

Well last night was....well interesting! billy and i are supposed to be on a break but were not. so billy and roos came and picked me up in ross's convertible. which was cool i guess. umm we were gunna go to a party but we couldnt find it so ross decided that he wanted to go beat some kids ass. so we went to wakefield to go to bojangles and ross went a buck 20 on the highway in a car with no top. i thought i was gunna fly out! hah! so we got to bojangles and espo<~~~who names there kid espo?? was there. then joe anthony nick and RobErT showed up and then the guy the ross wanted to beat up came with sam wood.. lol cool name. but nothin went down and the cops came b/c aparently u cant hang out in parking lots at 2 in the morning?? hmm... so they searched the cars and got ids. and poured out all the beer and gave breathilizers and just a bunch of bullshit.. no one got charged and no one went downtown! which was good. them ross dropped billy and i off at billys house and we chilled. i got hom at 4 and went to sleep. woke up at 11 billy came over, took a shower, billy gave me a full body massage, then i took him out to pizza italia which was cool, then we went and picked up katty kat!!! and now me and kat are chillin at mi casa playin with our new bunnies, snickers and carmela!!!!! and then later on billy comin over and were goin to a party,,, hmmm....... how wonderful!!! love you
ash

Posted at 06:45 pm by MissMarilyn
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Apr 30, 2004

No where to get my frustration out!

well billy and i havent been on good terms but i guess now we are, still a lil rocky though but i have faith that we will get through A OKAY!!! like always! right kat? tonight im goin to a durham bulls game with my family to spend some quality time with them b/c god knows i never do that anymore! then tomorrow im gunna hang out with kat and hopefully go out with billy later in the night. the parentals and the lil one are all going to wilmington for the day to pick up bunny rabits b/c ours had a heart attack and died on our front lawn, R.I.P. so sad... so i have the whole house to my self tomorrow, i just dont know what im gunna do with it! anyways! sunday i have no idea what im doin but thats alrite i'll figure somethin out!

my daddie got a job offer for cirulation manger which pays a ton more then his job now and it'd be a great opportuninty for him only thing is the job is in boston....no im all for gettin the fuck outta bumfuck raleigh, how ever my daddie doesnt wanna live where its good, it's gotten tooo soft over then years, plus he doesnt wanna live in a big city, which is odd coming from my father, now my mama she says we can move up to boston and buy a real nice house with a whole lotta land and have goats, lol! shes all about the farm living lemme tell yah, adam will never leave amber sam wont leave his school and my mom says i wont leave billy and all my friends....my response..... what friends? and its not like ima marry billy...lets be real..

anyways this is my new fave country song, as much as id hate to admit it...the whole southern livin is kinda startin to grow on me, however i still love the city life!

Well, I ain't never been the Barbie doll type
No, I can't swig that sweet Champagne, I'd rather drink beer all night
In a tavern or in a honky tonk or on a four-wheel drive tailgate
I've got posters on my wall of Skynyrd, Kid and Strait
Some people look down on me, but I don't give a rip
I'll stand barefooted in my own front yard with a baby on my hip
'cause I'm a redneck woman
I ain't no high class broad
I'm just a product of my raising
I say, 'hey ya'll' and 'yee-haw'
And I keep my Christmas lights on
On my front porch all year long
And I know all the words to every Charlie Daniels song
So here's to all my sisters out there keeping it country
Let me get a big 'hell yeah' from the redneck girls like me, hell yeah
Victoria's Secret, well their stuff's real nice
But I can buy the same damn thing on a Wal-Mart shelf half price
And still look sexy, just as sexy as those models on TV
I don't need no designer tag to make my man want me
Well, you might think I'm trashy, a little too hardcore
But in my neck of the woods I'm just the girl next door
I'm a redneck woman
I ain't no high class broad
I'm just a product of my raising
I say, 'hey y'all' and 'yee-haw'
And I keep my Christmas lights on
On my front porch all year long
And I know all the words to every Tanya Tucker song
So here's to all my sisters out there keeping it country
Let me get a big 'hell yeah' from the redneck girls like me, hell yeah
I'm a redneck woman
I ain't no high class broad
I'm just a product of my raising
I say, 'hey y'all' and 'yee-haw'
And I keep my Christmas lights on
On my front porch all year long
And I know all the words to every ol' Bocephus song
So here's to all my sisters out there keeping it country
Let me get a big 'hell yeah' from the redneck girls like me, hell yeah
Hell yeah, hell yeah
Hell yeah
I said hell yeah!

Posted at 05:31 pm by MissMarilyn
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Apr 28, 2004

Lemme Fill yah in..

well this week isnt the shit at all, nothing special, cept for the fact that billy finally let me have my table he built for me in woodshop class. i love it!! it soooo cute and it matches my room completely! god i sware we are like a damn married couple! this guy makes me so happy, seriously its scary to know that we've been together for almost 8 months. he makes me sooo happy i just dont know what to do with him! my goodness! well on another note sarah powers makes me laugh so much, everything that comes out of her mouth is a surprise...or just stupid.. lol! kat, what can i say she b-e-a-utiful! love her to death. MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 1 MONTH FROM TOMORRRRRRROOOWWWW!!!!! MAY 29TH SWEET SIXTEEN BABBBBBIIIEE!! HELL YAHH!!! im celebrating like a mofo! YOU KNOW!

Posted at 04:46 pm by MissMarilyn
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Apr 25, 2004

this weekend kinda sucked...

Friday, got in a fight with jenny, and i dont care cuz ughhh she stresses me out and its drama i dont need right now! friday night, we were gunna go to heather harrisons party but she was being a suck up bitch and didnt like nick joe and anthony b/c they had tatoos...w/e saturday was cool i guess, we went down by where joe used to live and went to this party, it was real big lost of people..flame throwers and everything strippers, the whole nine yards...but it got busted at like 2 by the po-po's. but its all good i didnt find it fun anyways, i much rather just drink with a bunch of ppl i know than a bunch of drunk ugly guys that hit on me while watchin an ugly slutty stripper that cant strip at a party with 300 people. but hey thats jsut me!
i love billy j

ash

Posted at 04:28 pm by MissMarilyn
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Apr 20, 2004

Long Tiring Day!

_TeStInG ^uP _tHe^AsS _this ^week!

^{tired as fuck... billy had to work, im g_rounded, mom's bein a}bitch^{, best part is that i have 3rd pd. with the lo}v^ely _sar_a^h_p^owe^rs
^{and she} makes me smile! ^{went off for lunch today with austin and sarah taco bell rocks my world! hah sunday billy called my cell phone and goes}_{good ^morning my} ^dearest _{love! ^rise and} ^shine_!

much love
ash

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Apr 18, 2004

PROM NIGHT

yesterday wasnt A perfect day, it was THEE perfect day! everything about it! i made billy a romantic candlelit dinner, we got all dressed up, got pictures taken, went to prom which was totally awesome! it was soo beautiful! and we had NOOO trouble finding it which is a first for us! billy danced with me even though he cant dance he still tried, and we slow danced, talk with some friends, danced some more! went to chads house afterwards and a bunch of ppl came over and we just chilled around drinkin and havin a good time. no problems with cops, i didnt have a curfew. it was just a great day! and i must say billy and i looked bangin! we look soo good together you guys! hah! there are so many more details ya'll but i dont feel liek writin it all so if you want more then just talk to me kay?

love you!!

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Apr 14, 2004

Best Things about Spring Break '04

having 9 full days to spend with my wonderful boyfriend.
absolutly no drama what so ever
buying my prom dress and acessories
gettin lots of money from my daddie
chillin with joe, nick, anthony and billy for most of the week
buying stuff from adam and eves
chillin with kat at her house
seein kats bigg ass dog zoe and the naked child lol!
meetin alexas boyfriend ryan
finally meeting ROSS MURPHY after years and years of drama
gettin anthony's cellular #
goin down to CB with my boyfriend
spending the day on the beach
going to the gym with billy
sneakin out of my window every damn night at 11:30 to go to parties
having a nightmare about freddy gruger coming to get me
watching gone in 60 seconds
seeing pete spinney after 3 years of not seeing him
partying with lil spinney after a year of us not talking
chillin with alexa the coolest girl in the world
billy and i racing adam on leesville road
callin up adam to invite him and the dp ppl to a party
driving all te way back from CB or raleigh in a stick shift
peeling maddd tires after a cop just passed
seeing blake soules
pimpin the minivan
watchin amber be shit faced drunk
gettin shitfaced at ryans apartment
makin out with alexa
tannin
huggin the toliet after a night of drinkin too much
playin drunk driver
gettin a real big mistake off my chest
talkin to ryan reynolds for a while
seeing a 12 inch dildo at adam and eves
pricilla's where fun and fantasy meet!
playin tetrus at 2 in the morning
nick amacked my ass so hard that i fell off the chair
giving nick and joe dating advice
piercing my own nipple
billy piercing his own nipple
finding out the billy really does trust me
planning a romantis evening
me and alexa almost gettin raped by this drunk guy
according to alexa my burbs smell like garlic? haha
watchin alexa get shitty
havin this guy from the gym hit on me while billy was there
sittin in a puddle of beer
cassie calling me at 10 in the morning and hangin up
seein billy zig and matt bryson
gettin my new marilyn monroe purse and wallet
havin billy tell me im hardcore by classy oldschool
FLEA MARKET!
realizing how much i love my boyfriend
wishing that billy and i were both 10 yrs older
wanting a lil boy named giovanni
gettin a full boddy massage from the one and only billy joesph
playin monopoly with adam and amber
quiting smoking with billy!
billy cooks me food
how wonderful my b/f takes careof me when im hungover
driving a stick shift for a day
how sex fixes everything from fights to stomach aches
punchin this girl in the face that gave me a dirty look
joe smacked my ass
finding my sexy underwear
strawberries make me happy
shopping
eating seafood
teaching billy how to dance
see billy dressed up in a tux
curly hairness
painting my nails
running up my cell phone bill that my daddie pays for me
having long romantic talks with my sweetie
staring at the stars all night
peeing on the grass
lobster
my sexy outfit
no one was around to bug me like *cough cough* someone we all know so well
i didnt have to me those two kiss and hold hands 24/7
having my mom ask me about condoms
having my dad ask me if im having sex
adam sounds like a crackhead with a craving
alison called me
suga suga
tipsy on the radio
billy sings country hah
matt pond is a weirdo
climbing through billys window at 3 in the morning
this guy at the party had really big ears
while everyone was in myrtle beach i still had a great time here
talked to kellie while she was in flordia
woke blake up when i called her cellular at 2 in the morn.
i love my boyfriend
oh so very much
i wanna marry him
and have his babies!
whoooaaaaaaa thats way ahead of me! lol
I HAD A GREAT SPRING BREAK! HOPE YA'LL DID TOOOO!!

love yah

Posted at 06:09 pm by MissMarilyn
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Apr 12, 2004

Patience is a Virtue

Sometimes wating to tell someone something isnt the best way to handle it. but then again if its someone that loves you, they would understand right? but if you love this person back then why would you do something that would hurt them? i dont know. after 5 or 6 months of keeping this one thing from the person i love, i finally cracked, and i was so upset b/c i didnt wanna lose him. i guess i just didnt know that he loved me so much as to totally forgive and forget the mistake i had made 5 months ago. but isnt there a saying, you can forgive but you'll never forget? what about that? in the end i was more upset than he was and he just kept telling me how much he loved me. i guess thats true love huh? a person that can love you no matter what you've done in the past, what you're doing in the present and what you'll do in the future. and person that through all your imperfection , can still see the true beauty that is held within. a person that through thick and thin will always be there. soulmates? i dont know. i ust wish i met him 10 years down the road. he's perfect for me. if i was 26 he'd be 30 and we'd be engaged to be married. it's so real it's scary.i love him.

Posted at 03:14 pm by MissMarilyn
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Apr 11, 2004

HAPPY EASTER!

^H_A^P_P^Y_E^A_S^T_E^R_!

well yesterday , umm..damn what did i do? oh yah! i went to the gym with billy for an hour and 15 minutes. which was fun.umm then we went to his house and ate somethin and then he went to work. i went out with my parents and got a new marilyn monroe purse(yes yes, yet another one) and a new pink wallet that i needed alot! then i came home and billy came over after workin and we went out found out that jerimiah was havin a party at his house so we called up mad ppl, and invited joe and nick and all them and then all the DP ppl, like my brother and joe and whitney and everyone. billy dropped me off at my house and 10:30 and then like 8 cars rolled up at my house. it was crazy there were like 20 heads outside my house talkin about where they were goin and shit. weird! anyways i gues the party was kind of gay so everyone left at like 12:30 and billy came back to pick me up and he was on the phone with aleXA talkin about some party that was goin down in wildwood green. and alexa was stoned off her ass and billy was drunk so between the two there was no workin it, so her b/f ryan got on the phone and i talked to him and we got directions to the party. it was fun, lotta beer but im not a big beer guzzler so when billy zig. hit up alexa's cellular i jumped on the opportuinity to ask him to buy me some smirnoff and he did. i gotta so alexa rocks my world! shes gotta be the BEST person to ever chill with when ur stoned jacked drunk trippin, w/e it is do it with her b/c shes the fuckin shit! loll!! OMGOSH! some guy liek tried to rape me and alexa it was really scary! lol!and i walked in to go to the bathroom and some guy was liek heyyy!! and gives me a hug and im all like,, uhhh okay, some drunk guy is tryna hug me, thats cool! so later on were all sittin down outside talkin and this same guy is sittin next to me and he says some gay shit to me and billy zig.(who i've known since i was about 7) goes dude do u know who this is? and the guy goes hell yah! and im like well who are you? and billy goes dude thats pete spinney! andi wa sliek WHATTTT!! ANDREWS BROTHER?!?! wtf!! and i gave him a huuuuugggee hug and shit! it was crazy i havent seen petey in like 2 or 3 years!! i missed him so much! u guys i used to have the biggest crush on him like u wouldnt beleive!! and i think billy felt like threatened so he wa sliek huggin on me and shit it was cute! and then this guy that was at the gym when billy and i were there walks up to me when im with alexa and goes hey didnt i see you at the gym today? and i wa sliek yah and billy walks up and starts talkin to him so i start talkin to alexa b/c she was liek wiggin out and the guy goes to billy is that ur g/f? and billy's like yah thats my girl.. and the guy walked off, lol it was great! anways the party ended at about 2:30 and we all went home billy dropped me off and i went to bed and i lost my cell phone in the middle off the night somewhere in my room and i couldnt find it b/c it was on silent anwyas billy came over this morning at like 12:30 and worke me up so i jumped in the shower and then i got out and he was layin in my bed so i got dressed and everything and he massaged like every part of my body and whispered sweet nothings in my ear like and we planned a romantic "date" for the two of us! lol! it so great you guys have no idea how much in love i am with him! well he left at about 3 so my family and i could eat dinner (yes we eat real early on holidays) and so he could go to work at 4! and then tonight were gunna go out and chill with alexa and ryan hopefully and drink somethin or w/e!

love you, ash

Posted at 06:33 pm by MissMarilyn
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